first bite!

yesterday elijah turned 6 months! in honor of that we decided to start him on rice cereal at bed time. im beginning to have a hard time keeping up with his big self. well like many things, it went nothing like we expected. apparently i hadnt thought out the fact that he would not know how to eat from a spoon. poor boy was so confused! and i wanted to use his pretty engraved baby dishes when i prolly wouldve been better off using his plastic baby spoon. the recommended ratio made it so milky that it was still mostly liquid. it was pretty funny.
are you spozed to feed this to them with a bottle?
he still woke up at the same time hungry. he must not have gotten very much at all. better luck next time to us.

i have a confession:
i have a xanga.

there was an enormous amount of birds migrating together. it was quite cool.

oregons very pretty.






seeing fireworks for the first time, buggy's not too sure how he feels about it:

i dont know why but i like this picture:

buggy and his uncles:


my husbands so cute i can hardly stand it:





too cool for school:



love his little man boobs:

i ate half a tin of pringles for breakfast.
my single dread is taking over leaving my hair no option other than up in a bun and i am soooo sick of it.
last night was the first time i started to lose my patience with elijah. he would not stop pinching and scratching my face and he refused to sleep. he cried in his bed and wouldnt sleep in ours. mike took him for a little while which i really appreciated. ive never really been frustrated with him. i dont know how single parents do it. mike is such a good partner.
hanukkah begins next week, im really excited about brisket and latkes!
my little bug has a scratch on his face cos his nails were too long. another thing to feel guilty about.
pictures from our trip will be here soon.

seattle here we come!!
(5 months old today. )

i am very blessed to have as much help as i do, especially from my husband. i have it pretty easy in the grand scheme of things and compared to most moms. that being said
i am longing to hear someone say
"let me take the baby for a couple of hours, you go do something on your own"

rollin with the homie

lijahs most recent accomplishment: rolling over


what have a i been up to? a question i never really know how to answer. our days feel so filled and busy but when i try to remember what ive been doing i dont really know. davi, you were absolutely right when you said that sometimes just making dinner is what i did. thats become somewhat of a big deal. especially if its a dinner thats more than just a main course. and even more so if that "main course" isnt macaroni and cheese.
every morning i watch the view -dont judge me.
every morning i read with/to elijah
almost exactly an hour and a half after we wake up he falls asleep for nap number one. this is when i eat something check email and do random things til he wakes back up.
we play and jump around the house and take goofy pictures and figure out what we should wear.
i have lunch with michael almost every day and i cherish that. its so nice in the middle of the day to see eachother.
what else do i do though? im supposed to be working on my intern hours for going back to massage school for extra classes but i dont do that nearly as much as i should. i still have 180 hours to do before we move so i can work in nashville. i am setting up a grassroots showing of the film The Business of Being Born. but right at the moment im not doing much even for that.
so in thinking about it what i have been up to is baby elijah, laundry, procrastinating cleaning, a game night here and there, working a few hours a week and i think thats about it.

what a boring post.
someday i should be better at this.
look at this face.






by far one of the best outfits i have put this poor child in. dont worry, he only went to gramma and grampas in this.

my little man is getting so big, i love it! but with all these tiny new ones its also already making me nostalgic for when he was still a newborn. hes getting his shots next week, im dreading it. today he smiled and raised his eyebrows at me just like his daddy does and it made me swoon. i knew id love him but wow, this motherly love thing is pretty intense.
these are from when he was 11 days old, by friend took them and theyre of my favorites.

things i want to do and not just "plan on"...

bellydancing 2 times a week
read 3 books by the end of november
start knitting again
3 walks a week
stick with bedtime routine for lijah
turn off the tv after the view is over
cut off hair
get massages again
clean out lijahs closet and rotate out clothes that no longer fit :o(
clean out my closet
rearrange cupboards
start planning for christmas
clean ALL the floors, not just one at a time
transform the stinky room into a reading room now that choxies gone

sick...again

i was under the impression that breastfed babies dont get sick. apparently i was wrong.
this is lijahs second cold! hes been snotty since saturday and it keeps fluctuating. theres no fever just snot getting in the way of breathing normally. its clear so thats good i think. i hate using the nasal aspirator especially when im home alone with him cos he thrashes and pushes my hand away and screams like the dickens.
any suggestions? i feel like im doing something wrong cos hes such a healthy kid overall it doesnt seem like he should already have had 2 colds.
i hate this new feeling of being responsible for someone and not knowing what do to.
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choxie moved to her new home on friday. it was sad but i didnt cry. i miss her and i dont. i love her but im really glad shes living in someone elses house. now our mission is to transform the "stinky" room into a reading/homework room for mike.
our last moments with her: im sad, mikes happy, lijah just wants to eat his hand and choxies trying to run.


mike reading one of our favorite dr seuss books to lijah


footsie fun!


i love my boys.

finding feet and choxie leaves

lijah has made some new developments this past week. 1. he has found his feet! almost everytime hes on his back or sitting in one of his chairs he will entertain himself with those cute fat footsies. i love it! ive been trying to get a picture but he sees the camera and lets go so the one i snuck isnt that great but it works. 2. he sits up in his bumbo chair now! no slanting off and falling to the side, full on sitting up! such a big boy. 3. he ROLLED OVER! isnt this too early for that kind of thing?? he did it 3 times yesterday at my parents house. after each time he just looked very confused about what just happened. this is exciting but makes me nervous. no more leaving him lying on the sofa and assuming he will be there in a couple minutes. now we are at the start of a mobile being. its been really nice to know he cant move. but times are achangin apparently. our little man is so smart.
teething is here too. blast.
we found a home for choxie. we cannot keep our hyper little kitty cat. its sad, she was a christmas present from my sister and her husband almost 2 years ago and she was our baby. but now with the real baby shes getting a little too comfortable and gets a look in her eye like shes about to pounce him. shes going to a couple we know and im REALLY glad they are taking her. theyre really nice and have a whole house for her to run around in and she will be petted and loved. maybe even bathed. it will be nice to not have cat fur around and to not be constantly watching her to make sure shes not jumping into the bassinet but im still getting sad. im sure i will cry. shes standing on the computer staring at me as i type this...
oh ya, lijah also spent his first whole night in his own bed aside from when he was eating! normally he starts in his bassinet and when he gets hungry around 3 or so i bring him into bed and he eats and he stays in the bed. i have really enjoyed this way. hes so snuggly and warm. BUT hes not always so snuggly anymore. he kicks and fidgets and wiggles like crazy sometimes and mommy likes her sleep. and she likes to be next to daddy sometimes too. soooo we have officially started a night time schedule as of tuesday night AND he is sleeping in his bed between eatings. and he was totally fine with it! YAY for sleep!

finding feet


sitting up like a big boy


those lips get me every time

choxie right now. its like she knows...

i think mommyhood is catching up with me. dont get me wrong i LOVE it. i love being with our son all day and getting to know him and teach him about the world as i see it. but i think im beginning to get tired. i really didnt in the beginning like i had expected. we had a lot of help from our parents and mike is amazing with lijah. but now that hes almost 4 months old (!) our lives have smoothed out and returned to normal. mikes back in school and work. im back at work (part time but its still work) and i can no longer sit and watch tv like a robot like i did while still healing at first. weve been camping and going to nashville and trying to keep up with our friends and bridal showers and learning all these new things about being parents and nursing constantly it feels and for really the first time since hes been born im worn out. now i feel like im whining. im prolly just not drinking enough water.
so here, im putting up pictures.

so this is a blog...

i think ill forget about xanga and my myspace doesnt have a single post- i dont like that i even got one really.
we'll see if i do this.
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