my little man is getting so big, i love it! but with all these tiny new ones its also already making me nostalgic for when he was still a newborn. hes getting his shots next week, im dreading it. today he smiled and raised his eyebrows at me just like his daddy does and it made me swoon. i knew id love him but wow, this motherly love thing is pretty intense.
these are from when he was 11 days old, by friend took them and theyre of my favorites.

things i want to do and not just "plan on"...

bellydancing 2 times a week
read 3 books by the end of november
start knitting again
3 walks a week
stick with bedtime routine for lijah
turn off the tv after the view is over
cut off hair
get massages again
clean out lijahs closet and rotate out clothes that no longer fit :o(
clean out my closet
rearrange cupboards
start planning for christmas
clean ALL the floors, not just one at a time
transform the stinky room into a reading room now that choxies gone

sick...again

i was under the impression that breastfed babies dont get sick. apparently i was wrong.
this is lijahs second cold! hes been snotty since saturday and it keeps fluctuating. theres no fever just snot getting in the way of breathing normally. its clear so thats good i think. i hate using the nasal aspirator especially when im home alone with him cos he thrashes and pushes my hand away and screams like the dickens.
any suggestions? i feel like im doing something wrong cos hes such a healthy kid overall it doesnt seem like he should already have had 2 colds.
i hate this new feeling of being responsible for someone and not knowing what do to.
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choxie moved to her new home on friday. it was sad but i didnt cry. i miss her and i dont. i love her but im really glad shes living in someone elses house. now our mission is to transform the "stinky" room into a reading/homework room for mike.
our last moments with her: im sad, mikes happy, lijah just wants to eat his hand and choxies trying to run.


mike reading one of our favorite dr seuss books to lijah


footsie fun!


i love my boys.

finding feet and choxie leaves

lijah has made some new developments this past week. 1. he has found his feet! almost everytime hes on his back or sitting in one of his chairs he will entertain himself with those cute fat footsies. i love it! ive been trying to get a picture but he sees the camera and lets go so the one i snuck isnt that great but it works. 2. he sits up in his bumbo chair now! no slanting off and falling to the side, full on sitting up! such a big boy. 3. he ROLLED OVER! isnt this too early for that kind of thing?? he did it 3 times yesterday at my parents house. after each time he just looked very confused about what just happened. this is exciting but makes me nervous. no more leaving him lying on the sofa and assuming he will be there in a couple minutes. now we are at the start of a mobile being. its been really nice to know he cant move. but times are achangin apparently. our little man is so smart.
teething is here too. blast.
we found a home for choxie. we cannot keep our hyper little kitty cat. its sad, she was a christmas present from my sister and her husband almost 2 years ago and she was our baby. but now with the real baby shes getting a little too comfortable and gets a look in her eye like shes about to pounce him. shes going to a couple we know and im REALLY glad they are taking her. theyre really nice and have a whole house for her to run around in and she will be petted and loved. maybe even bathed. it will be nice to not have cat fur around and to not be constantly watching her to make sure shes not jumping into the bassinet but im still getting sad. im sure i will cry. shes standing on the computer staring at me as i type this...
oh ya, lijah also spent his first whole night in his own bed aside from when he was eating! normally he starts in his bassinet and when he gets hungry around 3 or so i bring him into bed and he eats and he stays in the bed. i have really enjoyed this way. hes so snuggly and warm. BUT hes not always so snuggly anymore. he kicks and fidgets and wiggles like crazy sometimes and mommy likes her sleep. and she likes to be next to daddy sometimes too. soooo we have officially started a night time schedule as of tuesday night AND he is sleeping in his bed between eatings. and he was totally fine with it! YAY for sleep!

finding feet


sitting up like a big boy


those lips get me every time

choxie right now. its like she knows...

i think mommyhood is catching up with me. dont get me wrong i LOVE it. i love being with our son all day and getting to know him and teach him about the world as i see it. but i think im beginning to get tired. i really didnt in the beginning like i had expected. we had a lot of help from our parents and mike is amazing with lijah. but now that hes almost 4 months old (!) our lives have smoothed out and returned to normal. mikes back in school and work. im back at work (part time but its still work) and i can no longer sit and watch tv like a robot like i did while still healing at first. weve been camping and going to nashville and trying to keep up with our friends and bridal showers and learning all these new things about being parents and nursing constantly it feels and for really the first time since hes been born im worn out. now i feel like im whining. im prolly just not drinking enough water.
so here, im putting up pictures.